It was so strange but there weren't many tears when we arrived at his earthly resting place. Our pain is still the same but with time really does come the ability to process and in a way accept. Don't get me wrong, the road to this point was flooded with tears and shadowed with anger and question. It often still is daily. But for some reason on this day they were few.
Maybe it was the gorgeous weather.
Maybe it was all the people holding us up in prayer as we dealt with the step of child loss.
Maybe it was the fact that Cannon reached two new milestones - more teeth and standing on his own, that made it a happy day.
Honestly I feel like it might have been God's way of showing us that this day is not meant to be filled with sadness but instead joy. Heaven is a place we strive to reach and rejoice in all if it's glory. Not a place of sadness or pain.
Yes, the thought of Charlie not being here...in our arms hurts more than anything. The question is still there most times. But recently (for me) I question it less and less. The more I read my bible and truly open myself up to God and pray for His will to be done the more I feel at peace.
This whole life experience has given me a new outlook on so many things. In many ways I often wish that people could see this life through my eyes. It is easy to get swept up in the materialistic things in this life and even the emotional aspects of this life but it is so important to keep our eyes fixed on the unseen.
Faith is a challenge.
It is meant to be that way.
If it weren't it wouldn't be called faith.
Balloon release my amazing mama's group and Charlie's little friends in Florida did. I miss them so much. These are truly amazing women who would give anything to help out a friend. Love and miss ya'll dearly!
Part of the note that was sent with the video:
There was a bit of meaning behind the colors and number of balloons chosen: 14 baby blue balloons for his age, and BBAT's color, and one of each color of the rainbow for each letter of his sweet name.
We certainly think about and speak of you often in our group. Little Charlie will never be forgotten for those of us who had the pleasure of meeting you and your son. We could not let this day pass without doing something special to remember him by. We were all in tears after the release, and Jolene barely made it through telling everyone about your story and who Charlie was to all of us.
We love you and miss you.
Very much in prayer for you and your family today and every day.
Happy Heaven day buddy, we miss you infinitely but rejoice in the fact that you are safe with the Lord and will one day be reunited!
Maybe it was the gorgeous weather.
Maybe it was all the people holding us up in prayer as we dealt with the step of child loss.
Maybe it was the fact that Cannon reached two new milestones - more teeth and standing on his own, that made it a happy day.
Honestly I feel like it might have been God's way of showing us that this day is not meant to be filled with sadness but instead joy. Heaven is a place we strive to reach and rejoice in all if it's glory. Not a place of sadness or pain.
Yes, the thought of Charlie not being here...in our arms hurts more than anything. The question is still there most times. But recently (for me) I question it less and less. The more I read my bible and truly open myself up to God and pray for His will to be done the more I feel at peace.
This whole life experience has given me a new outlook on so many things. In many ways I often wish that people could see this life through my eyes. It is easy to get swept up in the materialistic things in this life and even the emotional aspects of this life but it is so important to keep our eyes fixed on the unseen.
Faith is a challenge.
It is meant to be that way.
If it weren't it wouldn't be called faith.
See....there were lots of smiles that day. :)
Releasing his bubba's balloons. He was not too sure about that one...lol
Balloon release my amazing mama's group and Charlie's little friends in Florida did. I miss them so much. These are truly amazing women who would give anything to help out a friend. Love and miss ya'll dearly!
Part of the note that was sent with the video:
There was a bit of meaning behind the colors and number of balloons chosen: 14 baby blue balloons for his age, and BBAT's color, and one of each color of the rainbow for each letter of his sweet name.
We certainly think about and speak of you often in our group. Little Charlie will never be forgotten for those of us who had the pleasure of meeting you and your son. We could not let this day pass without doing something special to remember him by. We were all in tears after the release, and Jolene barely made it through telling everyone about your story and who Charlie was to all of us.
We love you and miss you.
Very much in prayer for you and your family today and every day.
Happy Heaven day buddy, we miss you infinitely but rejoice in the fact that you are safe with the Lord and will one day be reunited!
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